I can't walk on water...

I wish I could reach out to someone.. someone in particular.. and tell her how dosh darn amazing she is.. this girl has an amazing smile, inside and out she is amazing. I wish she could believe in herself HALF as much as I believe in her. She is awesome..if there was anything I could do to make her see what I see i know she would be as enamoured with herself as I am....

Why is it so hard to be honest with people. I don't mean the little things. But when you see someone heading down a path that is destined for disaster... it breaks my heart to think of someone making a mistake that can forever alter their path in a negative way. I had to for the first time in my "parenting history" make a decision FOR someone else today. It should have been easy but it was so hard. I have always said I will always allow my kids to choose for themselves and I will support their choices. I just coudln't do it in this instance. I see how amazing she is and what she is worth and for whatever reason she has been refusing to see her own worth. I made her remove one major obstacle. I know she will better for it, and I know she knows it to but it is still so hard to TELL someone else they can not choose this option.

I am so thankful for my family tonight. I have had a very busy last few days but somehow I have taken the time to really stop and think about the things I have that have allowed me to love my life the way I do. I have decided that even though my body is failing me I am not going to let the depressed feeling I have regarding this define me. I am not going to let it decide my happyness. I am going to a great event next weekend for Advocare with an amazing group of friends that I know will always have my back. I am excited to get excited again. I have really been struggling with ME... not physically..most days anyway.. but just ME I have been working on myself really hard lately and sometimes when you work on yourself you discover things about yourself that you do not like. I know it will suprise some of you but I am NOT perfect.. amazing right? yea I was pretty astounded as well haha but really I have faults and although they are not new to me they have really grabbed ahold of me lately and used my bodys issues to wage a war against everything I am working so hard to be. I am not quiting, I never quit.. I never even contemplated quiting but at some point not putting your all into something is just as bad as quitting..

so tonite I am signing out wtih this though

if the truth is hard, do not hide from it just give it with love. Honesty is AlWAYS the best policy. If you have someone in your life that you love make sure you tell them....

I LOVE YOU MY FAMILY.. no matter how "unconventional" it is!